Alright guys, first actual article!
(and yeah, I know that the name is awkward, but I find more awkward to write something like: Diary of Carol or something :D, plus this won't be for my ,,diary" notes, but just for some of my ideas I want to share with people in the world:-) )
Alright so, let's do it!
Many times happened to me that i had a special feeling, when I was constantly thinking a bit more about something, but not just some shitty and silly thing, but maybe something that can actually cause a bigger discussion. Originally, this article was TOTALLY different. But.. I had to delete some paragraphs, because I think it's just not true anymore.
I thought that I am that type of girl that's kinda shy, unsocial, she doesn't share out her ideas and thoughts. Plus she is very ,,reserved" about alcohol, smoking and all this cvrap in our world that is destroying us. And I think I am still like that, but some little part of me stood up and started to say loud something else. And that part started to change me.
These days... I smoke a lot. But... Why you ask? Don't worry. I don't try to be cool or something, those are not my first cigarettes. Maybe it 's because of school, maybe it 's because of inferiority complex or it 's just I feel more relaxed and okay. Plus when I am smoking with my friends I feel even more better and happier. But I also think I start not to care about school, not to read, eat really much and become a teenager zombie, that has to still check facebook, instagram or youtube or whatever else. And I don 't want to be like that.
But you know what?
That didn't caused myself.
That caused SOCIETY.
Well, afterwards it's just problem of ourselves, but at first, society has made you how you are now.
I don 't say that EVERYONE is just a pupper of that bigger society, but a lot of people don't even know, that the originality they are finding and try to make is just something totally old or ,,mainstream".
And maybe that's the reason of my behaviour. You can see sooooo many young people smoke around the world. And that's totally bad. And I know I will have to stop, because I don't want to be a smoking or even worse drinking mother. It's just...
I will try to fight with it. But I think I wouldn't be able to do it now.
Man, this article is totally bullshit :D But sometimes, I really have to share my thoughts, because my head would explode.
So, expect some more deep shit in future and although it doesn 't worth it. pleas read and try to understand. And you will know me more and more :)
-Carol
I thought that I am that type of girl that's kinda shy, unsocial, she doesn't share out her ideas and thoughts. Plus she is very ,,reserved" about alcohol, smoking and all this cvrap in our world that is destroying us. And I think I am still like that, but some little part of me stood up and started to say loud something else. And that part started to change me.
These days... I smoke a lot. But... Why you ask? Don't worry. I don't try to be cool or something, those are not my first cigarettes. Maybe it 's because of school, maybe it 's because of inferiority complex or it 's just I feel more relaxed and okay. Plus when I am smoking with my friends I feel even more better and happier. But I also think I start not to care about school, not to read, eat really much and become a teenager zombie, that has to still check facebook, instagram or youtube or whatever else. And I don 't want to be like that.
But you know what?
That didn't caused myself.
That caused SOCIETY.
Well, afterwards it's just problem of ourselves, but at first, society has made you how you are now.
I don 't say that EVERYONE is just a pupper of that bigger society, but a lot of people don't even know, that the originality they are finding and try to make is just something totally old or ,,mainstream".
And maybe that's the reason of my behaviour. You can see sooooo many young people smoke around the world. And that's totally bad. And I know I will have to stop, because I don't want to be a smoking or even worse drinking mother. It's just...
I will try to fight with it. But I think I wouldn't be able to do it now.
Man, this article is totally bullshit :D But sometimes, I really have to share my thoughts, because my head would explode.
So, expect some more deep shit in future and although it doesn 't worth it. pleas read and try to understand. And you will know me more and more :)
-Carol
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